FUCK

Interview at NTU today, barring a disaster, I'll get in.

And then I was googling random terms at home, and guess who is in NTU as well?

FUCK.

FUCK.

FUCK.

Okay. I don't hate her. In fact, I never have. I've been envious of her. Envious of her because- well, never mind. But she reminds me of the shame that eats away at me, of the things I'm not and I can never be. I'll never be half the woman she was. I'll never be half the lady she is.

Yes. If you're thinking it's someone with the initials PCH, you're right.

Shit.

Shit.

Shit.

And to some random idiot who was yammering about it, for the last time, she's 慧, I am 惠. End of story.

FUCK.